Sunday, September 04, 2005

LOST Friends AND FOUND Fellowships !

Slept late on Saturday ... Woke up late today ... Had a rather uneventful morning and afternoon ... mostly lazing around , and reading the funnies ...

Got ready to go for my church's youth gathering at around 3pm ... Arrived there at around 4pm to an almost empty place ( it filled up later ) ... I hanged out with Kevin because he was the one and only friend I had ... I felt really out of place because the people at church had formed cliques of their own a long time ago ... my gang don't take part in this kind of things ( by the way , I lost touch with them anyway .... )

Things started a bit late ( we follow Malaysian timing = slow ) by this time I made a few new friends ... Emma and Christian were MC'ing and we started the praise and worship session with a few songs ... then we went on to play games ...

First we started with the ice-breaking sessions ... the guy's and girl's names were distributed by picking names ( lucky draw style ) of the opposite sex ... then we had to find who these names belong to and form a circle ... Then from this giant circle we would play a dancing game where every other person was sent to the back ... in this way ... the person in front of you is a new person to meet ... cool ... got a bit too into it ( i cheekily asked a girl for her phone number ... ) some of the girls were irresistible ( my apologies for sounding a bit like a pervert or something ).

The next game was charades ... we split into groups of 4 , depending on what colour your name was written in ... I was in the brown group ... whilst others were in black, blue and even orange ... My members had to act out a scene of the great flood and Noah ... Steven became Noah while Susan , Samantha and Me were the animals ... I was very embarrassed but we pulled it off ...

After this, was a game where everyone had to outside ... we were again split into groups ( 2 ) ... both groups had to make a long line out of everything we had ... I took my belt and shoes ... others contributed their socks and shirts ... we made quite a long line but the other team won eventhough they stole all of our ideas ... !

Then we went back into the classroom ( where the gathering was held ... this was no small classroom ... ) and sang a few more songs ... then we were yet again split into our original coloured groups and was asked to draw on a piece of paper on how Jesus looked to us ... I came up with an idea to not draw at all , just use a clean white paper as a symbol ... Steven and a new member who replaced Susan ...( I didn't get his name )...were against my idea but anyways still stuck with ... many groups had different and funny interpretations on Jesus ...

Now I feel the sequence of the way I'm telling on what happened is all jumbled up ... but it's ok ... I'm to lazy to think and change it all again ... So , as I was saying ... The game after that was another outdoor one , this time we had to run out to a certain area and find any small piece of paper and bring it back to the classroom under 1 minute ... I took my piece of paper the side of a small drain ...it said " slap a person who is wearing the same coloured shirt as you are " and I was happy that it was an easy one ... we formed yet another circle and each one had to read the task they had found and perform it ... Ta the last minute I exchanged my task with a another girl named Samantha ... her's read " Fear Factor : Go Mad !!! " ... I regretted changing it because I didn't understand what they wanted me to do ... till they said they wanted me to act being freaked out !!! ... oh .... then I took the microphone and screamed a lot ... HaHa !!! others had pretty silly things to do ... like dancing and giving flowers to the opposite sex ...

Then finally to end the day , we sang somemore ... Throughout the sessions , Emma and Christian were introducing the board members of Sacred Heart Youth Group ... after everything , we had dinner ... this is where everyone gathered together and got to know each other even more ... Unfortunately I had to leave early because I hitched a ride with Vonessa's mom ...

Just to sum everything up ... I had a great time ... hoping and praying desperately that God will give us the grace to have more gatherings like this ....

As I came home ... I felt a little flustered as tomorrow will be the day I will take my 2cd driving exam ... ( I failed the 1 st one whilst on the hill ... ) ... I cheered up a bit when I received a message from a very old friend on friendster ... She, as I recall was/is a very cheerful and funny person ... and she was/is a great friend ...

Then everything turned for the worst when I was having my dinner , my grandmother decided to bombard me with silly questions on what am I going to do with my life ( this is a very touchy issue with me ) ... and yet again she chose to argue on the most trivial of things ... which is why, to avoid an argument, I excused myself to go to my room and blog !!! HaHa !!! ...

I guess this is all ... I'm waiting for Malaysian Idol ( The Results Show ) to come on on TV ! ... then I'll go to sleep to wake up to a dreadful day .... my DRIVING EXAM !!! .... PRAY FOR ME TO PASS !!! .... *freaking out*

PS: I always thought Christian didn't like me ... ( I get paranoid ) the lesson of today is ... 'Don't judge a book by it's cover' ... it's cliche' but it's true ... I guess I felt out of place all this while ... eeerrrrr ... HaHa ??? ...

-conRad-

Friday, September 02, 2005





On The Plains Of Life I Look For Answers ... Love, Hate, Meaning, ... Slowly 'It' Reveals To Me In The Face Of Others ... Slowly , Someday , I Will Understand The Question Of Why I'm Here ...

  • I am very lazy to say anything ... for today I'll refrain into the dark corners of silence ... I like this pic ... Thought I should post it ... ( Im on the right ... the girl's Ooi Shin ... an old friend )
  • I love this pic of Britney !!! ... I know ... I know ... I'm crazy ... Theres nothing wrong with that is there ? ...

Thursday, September 01, 2005


... Live And Let Live , Leave And Let Go ...

I know many who read my last entry may have been surprised that I am capable of condemning my own family ... you see ... there's tons of stuff happening to me at once ( hence stress ) and the way I feel about my family may never change ... That entry was merely a tantrum thrown once in awhile ... this blog was created to serve the purpose of venting out my anger ... If you disagree with what I've done ... so be it ...

I went through with my plan of waking up at 4am to study ... It worked ... till around 5.45am ...when I threw up ... I guess it's because I didn't eat anything ... then around 6am ... I felt very sleepy which prompted me to the nearest 7eleven store to get coffee ( Nescafe ) ... I bought two cans of what I thought was different drinks ( they were packaged differently ... with different names ) ... cool !!! The Crazy Frog is on the airwaves ... yet another cool song ...
anyway back to the coffee ... it was the same only one was named "cafe latte' " ... and the other " kopi susu " ( coffee with milk ) ... latte means milk !!! Stupid !!!

I arrived at school, fresh and wide awake ... at around recess ( 9.20am or so ) ... I took my teachers advice and went to see the school counselor to figure out how to overcome my problem with my studies ... Sonia came along ... ( well she was the one who forced me to go ) ...
we talked for a very long time and it turned out to be very relieving to get stuff off my chest ... ( and that's all I'm gonna say ... although it sounds like I let slip a lot of stuff out ... )

After the meeting for the Archery Club ( which was after school ... ) , I went home using the LRT as I always do ... in the train I met Keeshore , Mok and Ashan ... we talked nothing but rubbish ( which also involved a lot of laughing about stupid things ... ) Aaaahhhh ... nothing to ease the mind but senseless laughing ... Cool !!!

Oh well ... this is where I'll stop ... I need to get back on to my timetable ... Books !!! here I come ...Yeah Right !!! HaHaHa ... ( I always seem to be laughing ... ) ... must be the cartoon ...
My mind's in a conflict of ideas right now ... ( is that possible ??? )

-conRad-